NOT A DAY GOES BY

This haiku took weeks to complete. It began with re-living a memory that was symbolic of what I believed about myself, and about love. Now it has become a lesson in love. I could never explain what I have learned outside of a haiku. I hope that when you read this, you will understand because you will feel the love.

2.24.2016 

Not a day goes by

When I don't think about you,

Wish I could see you.

Not a day goes by

When I don't wonder if you

Noticed my absence.

Not a day goes by

That my heart is not wanting

What never could be.

Words express a Love

Yearned for all my life, seen as

Never their first choice.

A lie kept alive

By desperate memories.

Feelings not for one,

But ghosts of my past.

Of unrequited love, viewed

Insatiable, by

A twisted psyche.

Where love was an illusion

And came with a price.

Real love, I knew not

‘Til you showed me the lie and

Gave love permission.

You said to me it’s

Okay to love more than one,

Tis not disloyal.

Truth told to my heart

Feelings spoken, accepted

My goodness affirmed.

Till a moment when

Misstep turned me back in time.

Unbeknownst to me,

I became deceived.

Worthy of real love no more

Giving life to fear,

Death to my goodness.

Transforming to obsession,

A true, perfect love.

A real affection

Not held back by boundaries.

A love born of light.

Where one can say I

Love you, and not be maligned,

Or words misconstrued.

Meaningless is a

Stranger’s view, when love honors

The voice of our hearts.

Love begins with self.

Shared with others, feels divine,

And is of Divine.

Love is to accept,

Believe in, and encourage

Light in others, self.